Crafting My Life

Crafting My Life

Innocence, purity, sweet, clear, clean. On the one hand, I love these words, and love the feeling I get from them. On the other hand, I’ve watched enough creepy movies that they can sometimes have a weird connotation. Semantics are interesting.

How like life.

I mean, we all have stuff. That’s part of what life is for. You get stuff, you work through your stuff, and then you live a happy, fulfilling life.

Or not.

So sometimes we are around people who get stuff around clean. They get all freaky about germs, or sexual behavior, or food, or bathrooms.

Sometimes, we are around people who get ideas about what they call “racial purity.” Or “ethnic purity” or even town or neighborhood purity or even departmental purity, though they don’t call it that. In high school we called them cliques.

Sometimes, we are around people who get ideas about innocence, and get all fretty about how no one is innocent. Ever.

Oy.

Why am I innocent? How do I know I am pure? What makes me clear? Why can I trust? Why can I trust my live force? What makes me feel connected with eternal existence?

I want my life to be full of light. Guilt isn’t light. Obsession isn’t light. Negative emotional judgments aren’t light.

The only way my life is full of light is if I fill it up.

I am the only one who can do that for me. You can create space for me to make that happen, but you can’t do it for me. You can beat me, but I am the one who decides whether I am feeling discomfort, or pain. You can love me, but I have to choose to feel loved.

I talk about this a lot, partly to create a space where you can create a life you love, partly to remind me:

I live in the life I create. I create it every single day.The life I live in is not reality, it is my version, based on my perceptions, which are based on vintage experiences that date back to when I was first parsing the world as an infant, creating my map of what it all means; my mind map.

I live in the life I create. I get what I expect most of the time. If I expect crap, I get crap. If I believe I’m really fortunate, my fortune is great. The more I clear out the parts of my mind map that says, “there be monsters” or “unexplored territory” the more space I have for wonderful things, wonderful experiences, wonderful people and relationships, opportunities. Oh, yes, I do.

How have I changed from believing life happens to me to knowing I life the life I create?

(c) Pam Guthrie 2013 all rights reserved 12042013

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Megabattle to the Death: Me vs Life -- Cancelled

Megabattle to the Death: Me vs Life -- Cancelled

Here is a simple truth. In fact, since it is true for everyone, it’s actually a Universal Truth with a capital T.. Life is easier, better, and more fun when we stop fighting it.

At the very bottom of it all, it’s all just energy. It’s not good and bad energy, just energy. We are just energy. Subatomic particles zazzing around in space, and somehow we are one of a gazillion results of that zazzing.

Reality is so loosey goosey.

Thoughts create things.

You have a lot more control over what you think than you think you do.

What?

This gets really clear when we are meditating. Thoughts flow through our conscious mind like clouds, lahdee lahdee lah. Every so often, one of those clouds is sticky, and we start to think on that thought. And we follow it down it’s particular path, with more energy, and judge it as good or bad based on our beliefs.

Thoughts become things.

Life is better when we allow it to unfold.

In my qigong practice, I let things flow. Sometimes I have a thought about the flow, sometimes I don’t. When “I” get out of the way, I have a wonderful time. Allowing my qi flow to flow, allowing my thoughts to flow. Allowing my life to flow.

I used to assume that life was somehow out to get me, to make my life hard. It was.

Now I assume that life is out to benefit me, to make my life better. It is.

To paraphrase Henry Ford, If you think life’s great or you think life sucks, you’re right.

When I trust that life is benevolent, and that it is affording me opportunities to grow and evolve, everything that happens in my awareness is an opportunity for my growth. If I ignore the lesson, it will come back bigger and more noticeably until it has to grab me by the neck and throw me to the ground. (I wonder why that seems to be the image I get re life giving me lessons I refuse to learn.)

When I allow my life to unfold, to flow, life gets easier, it gets kind of fascinating. So many of us take stuff personally in a negative way. When we flow with our life, we can take everything personally in a really positive way. What is the gift? Where is the lesson? Why do I choose to see the opportunity?

I want to be a grown up, with my demons faced, to the best of my ability, living in line with my gifts and talents, responsible for me and to you.

I want to live my natural life of happiness and joy and satisfaction and peace most of the time.

I want to create space all around me that is peaceful and safe so that have a place to come that feels great, and encourages your grown up self to emerge.

That’s nice.

How have I changed from fearing and hating my life to trusting my life?

(c) Pam Guthrie 2013 all rights reserved 10042013