The Best is in Store

The Best is in Store

You know, there is so much wonderful stuff in the world, more than enough to go around for everyone, with more to spare.

There is a little weird going on with distribution.

What do you deserve?

When we are living our natural life, we are deserving, and we can easily get what we want.  Some of us are there.

For the rest of us, it’s a different kettle of fish.

Some of us feel undeserving. We feel like everyone else needs a share, gets a share, but we don’t  We feel deprived. We feel resentful. We may feel envy of what they have, and may hold jealously to what we have. We feel like our lives are meager. Like we aren’t good enough.

Some of us feel ripped off, like we are getting a bum deal. We feel like other people are withholding our stuff. They withhold our happiness, our nice car, or fancy home. They withhold praise, and raises, either because they are intimidated by us or because they are power-hungry jerks, it’s all their fault that we don’t have what we deserve. Like we are put down.

Some of us feel entitled, like we get to take because the world owes us for our crappy life. We can justify little thefts because we deserve it more. We can take credit for other’s work, because we deserve it more. We feel kinda bad sometimes, but if we didn’t deserve it, we wouldn’t get the opportunities. Like we are compensating.

Some of us hold back, feeling like we shouldn’t want too much, as thought wanting nice stuff is bad, and denying ourselves is admirable. We feel kind of small, we feel kind of lacking. We also feel kind of noble in our lack. Like we are martyrs.

Some of us think that in order to get what we want, we need to work hard. We think that hard work brings our rewards. We feel like the only way to get ahead is to prove that we deserve it. Like we are gung-ho die hards.

For some of us, getting the stuff, or work, the outside things; that’s easy, it’s the inside stuff we deserve that seems to elude us; freedom from fear, confidence at our core, serenity, unconditional love. Like we are misfits.

My favorite? Just because I deserve it, doesn’t mean I can get it. Just because I can get it doesn’t mean I can have it. Like my life is a tease.

All of it is based on mis-learning. Isn’t that wild? It’s all inside us. When we feel deserving, we let ourselves have what we want. We don’t have to finagle, or sneak, or deny, or mope, or bust our tushies to get what we want. We integrate our negative experiences, we address our bad questions, we notice when we have the told thoughts, and we change our questions. And we notice and celebrate as we find what we deserve coming to us, and staying with us, easily.

How have I changed from deserving weird or bad, to deserving the all the best?

(c) Pam Guthrie 2013 all rights reserved 02102013